what lies within

engagement photos

2006-11-09T05:06:35Z

here are a few of our photos from our engagement session. 9 months after our engagement :)

heidi...these are the answers to your questions

2006-05-19T22:55:39Z

1. when are u and leo getting married? what color are your bridesmaides going to be?
we are getting married on may 5th 2007. and the bridesmaides dresses are hot pink..not like neon pink like a real rich pink...

2. how come you have to move out of your apartment? even if they are getting a new owner, i thought they couldnt just kick people out if they already live there...
the people who want to buy my house want to buy it under the stipulation(i know i spelled that wrong)that all tenants are gone....therefore my landlord has to give the tenants moving expenses..but i put my notice in before they told me i had to leave..therefore, i got nothing! but heather and i are getting a place..and it is beautiful and magnificant.

3. what new music have you discovered lately? cant think of anything off of the top of my head cept spill canvas and the fray....A mazing...with a capital a

4. why dont you and leo just get an apartment together??
cuz we dont have sex..we havent for like a year and a half..and i dont think that would work...not my bag...i dont want to live with someone till im married to them...my own personal opinion..props to anyone who chooses to do so

5. why dont you believe in faeries? god is real but you cant see it but you know its there. how come faeries cant be a possibility?? :)
cuz i cant feel faeries...i have never seen any actual evidence..i can feel gods presence so i know its real...anything is possible however..who am i to say faeries dont exist...i dont really believe they do...but im not ruling out any possibilities...they have found evidence of stuff in the bible and such..and also i just think this earth and the creatures dwelling on it are so complex and detailed, that there must be a mastermind behind it..i dont believe cells can just develop some of the things that us as humans, or some of the other animals have..such as penguins having eye lids that filter out salt, or us having certain bacteria in our body that we need...i dont think they have ever found evidence of faeries..have they? ive never really looked into it.

xhopexwithinx @ 2006-05-14T00:15:00

2006-05-14T04:15:43Z

you make me sad..and yes this is about you. and im writing it in here cuz its obvious that this is the only form of communication we share at this point and time. that is all.

xhopexwithinx @ 2006-05-13T23:03:00

2006-05-14T03:04:00Z

to all my friends who came to leos party..you guys are awesome..to all of leos friends who didnt come to his party!!! you suck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! jerks

leo edward olbrych

2006-05-09T04:30:26Z

leo graduated from barran institute and is working full time at curry honda cuz he is awesomly amazing....anyways there is a graduation party for him at his house this saturday at 1pm. so if you love him, or if he loves you and he thinks you love him, you should come...cuz hes awesome and he deserves tons of awesome people there to support him..so be there or be square...all of you!!!!!!!!!!!

:(

2006-05-08T04:55:26Z

im moving....AGAIN.....

and

my heart hurts.

the end.

xhopexwithinx @ 2006-03-22T02:37:00

2006-03-22T07:37:38Z

1. YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (first pet and current street name)

"sammy grove" haha

2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (grandfather/grandmother on your mother's side, your favorite candy)

"covell swedish fish" i dont think i would get far with a name like that

3. YOUR "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME: (first initial of first name, first two or three letters of your last name)

"E-kus"

4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite animal, favorite color)

"kittie green"

5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)

"fae holyoke"

6. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (first 3 letters of your last name, last 3 letters of mother's maiden name, first 3 letters of your pet's name)

"kus ellcha"

7. JEDI NAME: (middle name spelled backwards, your mom's maiden name spelled backwards)

"eaf llevoc"

8. PORN STAR NAME: (middle name, street you grew up on)

"fae rt 20" haha

9. SUPERHERO NAME: ("The", your favorite color, the automoblie you drive)

"the green ranger" dun dun dun

xhopexwithinx @ 2006-03-22T02:36:00

2006-03-22T07:36:24Z

..Can you Name.....
Body: Can you name 21 people you can think of right off the top of your head? Dont read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 21 people.

*this is a lot funnier if you actually list the names first!! No cheating!!!*

1. meg
2. nate
3. justin
4. alisha
5. mary
6. john
7. leo
8. heidi
9. brandon
10. liberty
11. sean
12. steve
13. john ryan
14. kevo
15. rachael
16. beckie
17. ethan
18. shannon
19. melissa
20. janea
21. montell

Now answer the questions according to the names listed below
THE QUESTIONS:

How did you meet 10?
liberty-through dan daponde.

What would you do if you had never met 6?
john-umm i probably wouldnt do anything..cuz i wouldnt know he existed

What would you do if 20 and 15 dated?
janea,rachael-be very confused

Did you ever like 9?
brandon-yes but i stopped cuz heidi liked him too and i wanted her to be happy

Have you ever seen 4 cry?
alisha-many a time. shes an emotional gal

Would 3 and 12 make a good couple?
justin,steve- hell ya

Describe 8:
heidi-unique

How Much Do You Love Number 1?
meg-more than words can express

Do you like 19?
melissa-in a platonic way yes

Do you think 21 is attractive? :
montell-yes

What's 7's favorite color?
leo-black?

What would you do if 5 just confessed they liked you?
mary-be shocked then tell her im sorry but im taken and straight

When was the last time you talked to number 18?
shannon-hour and a half

What language does 13 speak?
john ryan-giberish

Who is 2 going out with?
nate-hes married to meg

what School did 16 go to?
becky-she is apprenticing to pierce..does that count

What is 14's favorite music?
kevo-hippy crap

Would you ever date 11?
sean-no

Is 17 single?
ethan-off and on

What is 2s last name?
nate-davis

Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 6?
john-haha no. hes dating my bestfriend and hes not my type

Where does 18 live?
shannon-holyoke

What do you think about 15?
rachael-shes a rad chic

What is the best thing about 2?
nate-his humor and his compassion

What would you like to tell 4 right now?
alisha-i love her

How did you meet 16?
becky-through john

What is the best and worst thing about 13?
john ryan-hes awesome, hes unmotivated

Are you gonna know 9 forever?
brandon-im starting to think no

yo

2006-03-21T07:30:09Z

1. Where were you when the ball dropped for 2006?
liberty rebekah skrypecks humble aboad

2. How did you get the idea for your profile name?
i have a ghetto bootie ha

3. What time were you born?
no clue

4. What song are you playing now, or wish you were playing?
bryan adams is on the radio haha

5. Has the death of a celebrity ever made you cry?
haha, no

6. What color underwear are you wearing?
black and red

7. Do you want a baby?
yep some day when im ready

8. What did you do this morning?
slept..i work third shift

9. What does your dad do for a living?
machinest

10. What ended your last relationship?
he did. we are on opposite ends of the spectrum. werent right for eachother

11. Did you have a date for Valentines?
yea

12. What are the last 2 digits of your phone number?
54

13. What was the last concert you attended?
concert...bright eyes....local show, 25 ta life

14. Who was with you?
bright eyes was brandon, heidi, meg and boy. 25 ta life, leo, mary, john, sean

15. What was the last movie you watched?
16 blocks.

16. Who do you dislike at the moment?
nobody.

17. What food do you crave right now
thai

18. Did you dream last night?
i dont think so.

19. What was the last TV show you watched?
something about dinosaurs on the science channel

20. What is your favorite piece of jewelry?
my engagement ring

21. What was the last thing you ate?
chili and rice

22. Who is your best friend of the opposite sex?
justin and sean are of equal value

23. What's a song lyric you have in your head right now?
ew, kelly clarkson cuz shes on the radio and i forgot my xm

24. What's in your CD player/iPod?
rise against

25. What side of the bed do you sleep?
whichever side i want, gosh.

26. What shirt are you wearing right now?
indecision tshirt, cold as life hoodie

27. What is your favorite frozen treat?
hmm...probably a caramel frap

28. How many piercings do you have?
4

29. What's your favorite store?
h and m

30. Are u thirsty right now?
no

31. Can you imagine yourself ever getting married?
i sure can, and i cant wait.

32. Who's someone you haven't seen in a while and miss?
my brother, travis, and heidi.

33. What are you doing this weekend?
going to a couples seminar

34. Do you care what people think about you?
i used to. but i dont anymore. i know who i am and God knows who i am and i could careless what anyone else thinks.

35. Have you ever done something to instigate trouble?
haha ofcourse.

36. What song(s) do you think your ex's listen to and think of you?
slick shoes, mxpx, deftones,be quiet and drive.

37. What song(s) do you listen to and think of ex's?
same

38. What is one thing you wish you were better at?
working out

39. What hurts you?
dishonesty,selfishness,losing friendship,insensitivity.

40. How tall are you barefoot?
5'7

411. Have you ever smoked heroin?
no

42. Do you own a gun?
no

43. Rehab?
notta

44. What's your favorite Christmas song?
i dont know the name of it..its on elf though. it has a man and a woman singing back and forth to eachother

45. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
anything besides milk

46. Do you do push-ups?
no.

47. Have you ever done ecstasy?
no.

48. Favorite Drink?
*WATER, ice tea

49. Do you like painkillers?
when i need them yes

50. Do you have A.D.D?:
no.

51. Name five drinks you regularly drink:
water, icetea, chai,water, ice tea

52. What time did you wake up today?
6 pm

53. Current hair?
bun with a bandana

54. Current worry?
the loss of a few friendships im not ready to lose

55. Favorite places to be?
outside, my bed

56. Where would you like to go?
anywhere but here.

57 Do you own slippers?
yea

58. Where do you think you'll be in 10 years?
hopefully married with children and working a job that is fulfilling

59. Do you burn or tan?
*TAN

60. Would you be a pirate?
uhhh no

61. Last time you had an alcoholic drink?
never

62. Best bed sheets you had as a child?
dont remember ever having anything special

63. Worst Injury you've had?
getting my finger crushed in my machine in june...

the surreal life

2006-02-28T10:18:32Z

im taking the plunge with total abandonment

and i dont care if it may seem careless

because it all still seems surreal to me

with each passing moment, the passion only grows

each touch seeming more intense than the last

its in that moment when i am tangled up in your embrace

when i find myself wondering what i did to deserve such a life as this

its in the moments of quiet, when i sit back in awe

waiting to open my eyes and watch it all dissapear

left knowing it was only a dream

i pray that, that moment never comes

and when God looks down at me from above

he sees not only one set of foot prints in the sand

but three....

xhopexwithinx @ 2006-02-23T03:59:00

2006-02-23T08:59:55Z

Isn't it great ? It's just the beginning.

Name (as shown on birth certificate)
erica fae kustra

D.O.B (no lies.)
feb 11th 1982

Where were you born?
holyoke

Where do you currently reside?
chicopee

Born late, early? accidently.

In what order were you born? 4th

Ok, so we've got the background. Let's learn alittle more about YOU.

Height- 5'7

Hair/Eye Color- brown hair brown eyes

Are you happy with yourself in these aspects? sure, i wouldnt mind green eyes though

What would you change about each? ha i just said that

Anything you are physically ashamed of? not really ashamed

Any piercings/ink?plugs in my ears, nose piercing, and 7 tattoos

If so, are you satisified or do you want more? i can never be satisfied with tattoos. piercings have been long done

Do you pamper yourself occassionally? sure if i can afford it..doesnt everyone?

If so, how? get my hair or eyebrows done..something like that..buy clothes

Do you have glasses/contacts? glasses

Do you have freckles? na..beauty marks

What kind of deoderant do you use?ban cotton

What about shampoo? pantene

What does your hair look like right now? dork brown with caramel highlights

What about on a normal basis? light brown

Last chance to add anything on the physical appearance I have forgotten: i have a mushroom nose

Let's get to know the REAL you.

Serious/Light-hearted? i am easy going...but im pretty surious when i need to be

Dry/Out there - out there haha

Selfish/Selfless?- selfless almost always...but everyone has selfish moments and no one can say they dont

Academic/Athletic?- a little bit of both

Trusting/TrustWORTHY?- more trustworthy

Happy on the inside AND outside? currently yes...cuz i take medicine haha

Easy/Hard to talk to?- i would say nice, i dont know what other people would say

... able to open up to others easily?- yes.

Stressed out at times?- yes

Heartbroken?- has been yes..but i am unbelievably happy right now

Honest with yourself?-yes

A heartbreaker?- no

In love? - : yes

... loved?- yes

Smart?- Yes

Open to suggestions?if theyre from someone I respect

Open to change?- yea I am

Religious?- very

A good friend?- i try to be yes. i am currently learning to let go of friends who do not seem to value or appreciate my friendship as i do theirs.i have a tendency to keep holding on because i love them..but for people who dont seem to appreciate it, im trying my best to stop.

Hey, speaking of "good friends." Let's explore that, shall we?

Would you rather ...
Have 100 acquaintance "friends" ...
... or a few CLOSE friends, only ? - a few close

If you chose acquaintance friendships why?
----

Ramble off some names, why don't ya: eli, jeremiah, isiah,mikah, summerlin, mackenzie, madison,aiden,autumn

What makes the "no strings" style better?- i dont believe in no strings. relationships are not to be taken lightly, and no matter how much you pretend someone out of the two always has feelings

Do you like to party in large groups?- i dont really party. but yes i like to be with a lot of people

Name some people you would vacation with: leo, my pops, mary and john,meg and nate, libby and lou

Where would you go? a cruise

Are there people you trust more than others? duh

If you chose a few CLOSE friends why? because i have found that is all i need..its hard to find people who really deeply care about you and its better to have a few that you know will always be there than a ton that always dissapoint you

Ramble off .. oh, let's say: 5 names or less. Only the very closest: leo, mary, maegan, alisha, shannon

Let's talk about friend number ONE

Are they a good friend? he certainly is

What makes it so? he is my love and my best friend. he is amazingly forgiving and understanding

When and how did you meet? at denny s haha

ONE word to describe them: amazing

ONE word to describe your friendship: indescribable

Best memory with ? his proposal

Friend number TWO.

Why are they a good friend? she is there for me wherever and whenever i need her..she knows every minute detail of my life. and she wants to know what is going on with me and how i am doing at all times.

What makes them unique to anyone else? her craziness and how she is there for me every day

When and how did you meet? we met at college, we both dated the same kid

ONE word to describe them: rock

Do you ever fight? we have our dissagreements. its been a while though

Best memory: when i first starting working at smith and wesson and she was training me and we would just dance around like complete idiots to every song on the radio

Friend number THREE.

How are they unique from ONE and TWO? she has known me since i was like 3

Any nicknames for them? Or for you? amuel and jemuel

Do you talk on the phone?not often

What do you wish you could change about them? availability, other than that she is perfect

Do you fight? no way

What makes them special?her compassion, and her ability to constantly put others infront of herself

Friend FOUR.

When and how did you meet? at school, years ago

Share any hobbies? music, writing, drawing

Can they sing? yup , sure can

What kind of music do they like? pretty much everything but, hardcore, metal, country, rap, r and b..haha i guess thats not everything

Do you fight with them a lot? we have our dissagreements, but we dont really fight

Best memory: oh man there are too many....lets see..i dont know we have done waaaay too much obnoxious stuff together

Sorry, friend FIVE, but I think we get the picture. You have great friends.

Is there a station that you like the best? 100.9

Now onto music choices.

What music do you HATE? country, that is all

Is there a song for every emotion? heck yes

Which are you feeling right now? peaceful

What's your FAVORITE all time song (as of now) ? she talks to angels by the black crowes, or round here by the counting crows...i like crowes ..so what

On to RELATIONSHIPS!

Status? engaged

Like it? nope! i love it

Last relationship length: last? a little over 2

Longest relationship: 3 to four. off and on

Shortest relationship:3 weeks

Best memory: hmm...being at home with my dad before the age of 14

Worst memory: quite a few. every one of which includes my mother

Most recent ex's name: ethan

Why did you break up? we were not good together at all

Mutual, or one sided?one sided at the time...most definately mutual now

Do you have a crush right now? yes

Names, please.? Names? leo

First kiss: 6 but that doesnt really count...so 15 or 16

Virgin? nope

Best relationship advice ever recieved: communication..let God write your love story

Best relationship quote ever heard:"do unto others as you would have done to you"

Are you, or have you ever BEEN in love? yep

Do you want to fall in love? over and over and over again

Marriage and kids someday? absolutely

Have you met "the one" ? fo shizzle

Do you BELIEVE in "the one" ? fo shizzle

RANDOMosity, basically. Ready?

Do you ...

... drink? nope
... party? like its 1999
... smoke? nope
... drugs? nope
... tell secrets? not if they are not mine
... like to dance? heck yes..not in public though
... like to sing? heck yesser
... dye your hair? yep
... drive? Yes
... listen to music while you do homework? homework?
... DO your homework? homework?
... make good grades?i used to
... have pets? 2 kitties, and 2 leopard geckos
... like to read? LOVE to read

HAVE YOU ...

... skinnydipped? it didnt start out that way...a looong time ago
... fallen from a great height? fallen..not from a great height
... broken a bone? bones
... had a major surgery? na
... kissed a total stranger? no
... skydived? i want to
... bungeejumped? i want to
... made new friends? yes
... lost old friends? yes
... written a song? yes
... prayed?yes
... slept under the stars? ahhhh yes...amazing
... tanned in a bed? yes
... been deep sea fishing? yes
... loved someone so much it made you cry? yes
... made a mistake that you regretted? the only thing i regret is if i have hurt someone else..other than that i have no regrets
... learned from a mistake? heck yes
... said something you wanted to take back? who hasnt
... wished you could go back in time? nah

Just to clear some things up ... and finish this off:

Right/Left Handed: right
What side of the bed do you sleep on? wherever i want to...gosh
Last person you slept with? slept as in actually slept, leo
Last person you hugged? leo
Last person you called? leo
Last person you kissed? leo
Last person who called YOU? nate
Last person you texted? alisha
Last person who texted YOU? same
Last IM? karissa

Last thing you thought? who imed me last
Last thing you said aloud? later gator
What was the last thing you wanted to say? uhhh

everyone

2006-02-17T04:43:23Z

thankyou!!!!!!!!!

xhopexwithinx @ 2006-02-16T00:26:00

2006-02-16T05:36:23Z

i want to thank the following people for contributing to who i am today..all of the people i am about to list have effected the person i am or changed me for the better..if you are not on here it does not mean i dont love you..it just means you have done absolutely nothing for me....no no, jk jk...it just means..either i forgot you cuz my brain is bleeding...or that i love you but maybe i havent changed because of your influence....

maegan,justin,alisha,sean,liberty,mary,heidi,becky,rachael,janea,john,aaron,kevo,karissa,leo,heather,brandon,james,dan,benjamin,shayne,brendan,melissa, shannon, kelly

all of you wether it has been a day, a month, or even a year since i have spoken with you have a special place in my heart. i love you all and thank you for anything you have ever done in my life..if your not here and you feel offended..i probably forgot you...or atleast that is what i will tell you when you complain :)

what the......

2006-02-15T07:51:07Z

im fricken engaged....is that insane or what?

xhopexwithinx @ 2006-02-14T02:03:00

2006-02-14T07:03:54Z

<td align="center"> leopold --
[adjective]:

Like in nature to a train-riding hobo

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com</td>

yes this is lame. but try it anyways

2006-01-10T00:09:08Z

http://www.crushcalculator.com/content/love/456586376

go to that link, its pretty neat

yo

2005-12-08T03:50:20Z

yo, i have not written in forever so i just thought i would write...

i am happier right now than i ever thought possible...everything in my life is going better than i could imagine..i think that i have found the most amazing boyfriend i could ever dream of and i can not wait to be married and have his babies..some day...no time soon..hehe

i have an amazing job making the bling..and an incredible apartment all to myself...

i love leo edward olbrych

xhopexwithinx @ 2005-11-17T20:25:00

2005-11-18T01:32:25Z

List 10 things that make you happy:
1 god
2. leo
3. my niece, nephews, and god son
4. my mom and dad
5. family
6. friends
7. char char and eden
8. nature
9. music
10. kind people

Three names you go by:
1. erica
2. babe
3.

Three parts of your heritage:
1. Polish
2. indian
3. indian

Three things that scare you:
1. not doing what God wants me to do with my life
2. leo leaving
3. losing my parents

Three of your everyday essentials:
1. God
2. leo
3. shower

Three things you are wearing right now:
1. brown courdaroys
2. brown hoodie
3. bandana

Three of your favorite songs (right now):
1. straylight run
2. david grey
3. coldplay

Three PHYSICAL things about the opposite sex (or same sex) that appeal to you:
1. eyes
2. arms
3. butt

Three of your favorite hobbies (as of right now):
1. hiking
2. music
3. being with leo and friends

Three things you want to do really badly right now:
1. go see leo
2. get married
3. work first shift

Three places you want to go:
1. cruise
2. jamaica
3. austrailia

Three ways that you are stereotypically a girl/guy:
1. i like boys
2. i like sappy movies
3. I like puppies, kitties, and babies

xhopexwithinx @ 2005-03-27T20:30:00

2005-03-28T03:17:44Z

What was...

The first car you drove?: umm..actually drove..i believe it was a buick or some sort...illegally..not a good situation..
Your favorite thing when you were 5 that you still have?: hmm i cant think of anything i still have...i would have to think about that one
What are you most nervous about?: my money situation..and my future and all that it intails.
When are you happiest?: when i am outside in the spring air..in church..and laying with leo.
What are you most looking forward to?: Moving out!!
What are you least looking forward to?: the money situation..sucking and being lonely.
Who are you with right now?: myself and jesus.
Who do you dislike the most?: hmmm..i cant think of anyone off the top of my head...i dont really have a problem with anyone at this point..even though they may have a problem with me...
How old would you like to be when you get married?: hmm maybe 26?
What do you want your profession to be?: nursing..i think
Where do you want to live?: somewhere quiet and serene.

Finish the Sentence:

My mom: has a really bad smokers caough.
My dad: is wise..yet nieve all at the same time.
I am: a heffalump.
I want to: see leo.

Miscellaneous

If you were stranded on a desert island what would you bring?: water.
What is the worst movie you have ever seen?: club dread.
What is the worst TV show you have ever seen?: waaay too many
Do you like school?:no..i do like the feeling that i am accomplishing something while in school however.
If you could go to one place for a free vacation where would you go?: jamaica..cuz i love the accent and i love the dreads.
Do you like to fly?: yep.
How many times have you been kicked out of class?: alot in fifth grade and a lot in ms sossamons class..other than that i was a good student.
Do you wear a watch?: nope.
Do you have a car?: yep.
Do you like pizza?: yea but i dont really eat it.
How many times a day do you wash your hair?: every day.
Righty or Lefty?: Righty.
Do you have a good sense of humor?: Yes.
What is one thing you can't do?: spit like a real human without spraying everywhere.
Are you afraid of dying?: no..maybe afraid of dying before i get to do the things i want to..but i know where im going and im quite comfortable with that.
Do you like where you live?: not really no
Your hair/eye color?: brownish red with blond highlights
Who is in your family?: meh.
What's your best talent?: singing?.
What emotion do you hide the most?: anger..unless its with leo haha.
Do you think you're smart?: Yes.
What is your best subject?: English.
Are you religous?: yes.
Are you a good person?: i try to be but i am not at heart just like the rest of the world.
Your hobbies?: i guess i dont really have many.
Your biggest fear?: struggling for the rest of my life.
Do you have a hidden talent?: Singing. No one really knows I can.
How many CDs do you own?: a ton.
What is your dream car?: subaru wrx..or an old fairlane or charge,nova something of that sort.
What color is your room?: white.
What size if your bed?: full.
Do you have a TV in your room?: Yes.
Who is your favorite person to hang out with?: i feel most at home with heidi..but i never get to see her lately.
What is your favorite brand of jeans?: h ans m.
Do you use an alarm clock to wake up?: no cuz i work at 3 30 and i wake up on my own
What is your favorite thing to do on a rainy day?: have sex outdoors..but i cant do that anymore until i get married..so i guess laying in bed with leo watching movies.
What is your worst habit?: getting emotional waaay to quickly.
Whats your favorite Olympic events?: meh.
What's the first thing that you think about when you wake up in the morning?: ugh work.
What color of clothes do you like to wear the most?: green or brown.
Do you have dreams or nightmares more often?: hmmm dreams.
What is your favorite restaurant?: cheesecake factory!
What is your favorite memory?: prolly things with my dad.
Where do you see yourself in twenty years?: raising a beautiful family.
What grades do you get?: decent.
What is the most common saying you say?: blast.
What age do you think is too young to get married?: under 18.
Do you like to wear jewelry?: the stuff i wear everyday.
What kind of pizza do you like?: chicken spinoccoli!
What is your favorite flavor of ice cream?: mmmm its all soo good.
What is your favorite mealtime during the day?: Breakfast.
What is your personal motto?: to each his own
What do you want to do within the next week?: Relax.
How much money do you have ON YOU right now? 50 or 60 maybe.

What do you long to do?: serve God while serving others..live a fruitful life and make a difference.
What are you looking for in life?: Success and happiness.
Do you like to party, or are you more low key?: VERY low key.
How do you eat your Reese's?: Not usually.
Do you have a lucky number?: nope
Are you superstitious?: No.
What came first the chicken or the egg?: the chicken
Do you snore when you sleep?: No.
Do you talk in your sleep?: Occasionally.

PART B: THE CONSPIRATORS

Who is your best friend?: maegan and heidi.
Are you a good friend?: I try to be.
Do you have good friends?: yes a select few.
Who do you go to for advice?: God.
Do any of your friends go to you for advice?: Occasionally.
Who knows you the best?: heidi and leo.
Who makes you laugh?: A lot of people.
Do you have dark secrets?: Sure.
Who knows all your dark secrets?: leo and heidi.
Has a friend ever betrayed you?: yes.
How important is friendship to you?: very.
Who makes you feel the most secure about yourself?: leo

PART C: FAVORITES

Favorite color?: green.
Favorite song?: lots.
Favorite band?: underoath,counting crowes.
Favorite book?: bible.
Favorite thing to do?: sing.
Favorite place to hang out?: providence
Favorite day of the week?: sunday.
Favorite web-site?: i dont really have one.
Favorite Food?: thai.
Food you hate?: lima beans
Weirdest food you like?: brussel sprouts.
Favorite soda?: sprite.
Favorite gum?: eclipse.
Favorite Toothpaste?: minty.
Favorite Magazine?: i dont have one.
Favorite vacation spot?: i dont think i have a favorite yet.
Last movie you saw?: hmmm..the terminal...interesting
Favorite Store?: walmart.
Favorite Holiday?: christmas.
Favorite Season?: spring.
Where'd you get this from?: off someones journal

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Name: erica.
Do you like it?: yes.
Nicknames: dont really know
Screen names: xerikillax
Birthday: feb 11th.
Sign: Aquarius.
Location: chicopee.
School: none.
Status: practically married.
Crush: i have a boyfriend
Virgin?: Nope.
Natural hair color: light brown.
Current hair color: Light brown, blonde highlights.
Height: 5'7"
Birthplace: holyoke.
Shoe size: Depends on the shoe.

[ family ]

Parents: Mom and Dad.
Siblings: jay and jackie.
Live with: james anthony heather .
Favorite relative: gram c.

[ the past ]

What is the one thing you would change about your past?: nothing i am who i am because of it.
Last thing you heard: leo say "sorry i took so long, i mean".
Last thing you saw: computer screen.
Last thing you said: "you always think everything is about you"
Who is the last person you saw?: leo.
Who is the last person you kissed?: my dad.
Who is the last person you hugged?: my dad.
Who is the last person you fought with?: leo.
Who is the last person you were on the phone with?: meg.
What is the last TV show you saw?: i dont know
What is the last song you heard?: something by no innocent victim in my truck.

[ have you ever ]

Drank?: communion once.
Smoked?: no.
Had sex?: Yes.
Stolen?: no.
Done anything illegal?: driven without my license or tresspassed..lame stuff like that.
Wanted to die?: Yes.
Hit someone?: Yes.

[ other ]

Do you write in cursive or print?: Print.
What is your sexual preference?: I like the dudes.
What piercings do you have?: two sets of plugs in each ear..cartilage nose lip.
Any tattoos?: Yes.
Do you drive?: Yes.
Do you have glasses or braces?: no and no.
How many fillings do you have?: not sure.
Do you think you're good looking?: No.
Do other people often tell you that you're good-looking?: yes but they are mostly black or puerto rican and they like their woman large so really its an insult

[ fashion ]

Do you wear a watch?: no.
How many coats and jackets do you own?: not many.
Favorite pants color?: Denim?
Most expensive item of clothing?: roca wear hoodie
Most treasured?: none.
What kind of shoes do you wear?: converse,or clogs.

xhopexwithinx @ 2005-02-20T19:26:00

2005-02-21T00:27:07Z

leo edward olbrych...i miss you

even though you arent calling me cuz youre a big mean jerk

xhopexwithinx @ 2005-02-17T13:19:00

2005-02-17T18:25:31Z

i havent written in this thing in forever...not too much has happened in the last couple months or so..not that i can recall anyways...i had a birthday...went to see harlem globetrotters and then went to rhode island to go to the cheesecake factory..which is the best restaraunt in the world...no one has ever planned a day like that for me..so it meant a lot to me that leo was so thoughtful..even if i didnt act like it meant a lot to me it did...

justin got me another tattoo for my bday..so that was prolly the highlight...

other than that..smith and wesson is awesome..rollin in the dough...im bidding on a new job that makes like 3 or 4 dollars more so i hope that i get that one cuz that would be amazing and i could afford to go to school...because i cant get financial aide anymore cuz i make too much..but i still dont make enough to put myself thru school...

dont know what i am going to do with myself the next ten days...leo just left for florida about a half an hour ago and i am already lost...oh well

ok well that is pretty much it..

to the guys in the acacia strain... i hope your tour goes better than you expect it to and you guys have a safe and enjoyable time..i will pray for you..

peace

xhopexwithinx @ 2005-01-23T23:08:00

2005-01-24T04:08:31Z

You scored as Punk/Rebel.

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Punk/Rebel

31%

Geek

25%

Loner

25%

Prep/Jock/Cheerleader

19%

Drama nerd

19%

Stoner

13%

Goth

13%

Ghetto gangsta

13%

What's Your High School Stereotype?
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xhopexwithinx @ 2005-01-23T13:42:00

2005-01-23T18:42:27Z

xhopexwithinx @ 2005-01-13T12:27:00

2005-01-13T17:48:10Z

Last...
1 .person that slept in your bed: me
2.person that made you cry: leo
3.person that you shared something with: leo
4.person that you went to the movies with: leo,mary,john,nate,maegan
5.person that you went to the mall with: hmmm, i dont remember
6.person that yelled at you: leo
7.movie you saw: white noise
8.song you listened to: g love and the special sauce
9.thing you ate: noodles
10.person you called: steve, no answer
11.person that called you: leo
12.time you went out of state: hmm, dont remember

have you ever...
13.said I love you: yes
14.said I love you and meant it: yes
15.liked a close guy/girl friend: yes
16.liked a person so much you cried: yes
17.watched the smurfs: yes
18.been in love: yes
20.made home-made cookies: yes
21.hiked a mountain: yes
22.been out of the nation: no
23.been to Alaska: no
24.been to Mexico: no
25.been to Canada: yes
27.had the falling dream: yes
28.eaten an entire box of oreos while unloading the groceries: no
29.gone to a concert: yes
30.woken up next to somebody you cared deeply for: yea
31.wished you were the opposite sex: no
32.had an imaginary friend: no

choices...
33.red or blue: red
34.spring or fall: spring
35.math or english: english
36.hot or cold: hot
37.lace or satin: satin
38.new or old: old
39.blondes or brunettes: brunettes

40.give or receive: give
41.rock, paper or scissors: paper
42.rose or daisy: rose
43.chocolate milk or plain milk: plain
44.cats or dogs: both
45.boxers or breifs: boxerbriefs
46.bath or shower: shower
47.cursive or print: cursive
49.gold or silver: silver
50.croutons or bacon bits: croutons
53.high school or middle school: high school

favorite...
54.pizza topping: mushrooms
55.board game: meh
56.game: basketball
57.room in your house: bedroom
58.type of music: everything
59.sport: basketball
60.song: i couldn't choose
61.shoe: chucks
63.drink: iced tea
64.memory: being young and living with my dad
65.friend on the internet: same as friend in life
66.color: brown
67.smell: angel innocense
68.sound: canon
69.subject: english
70.website: don't have one
71.theme song: meh
72.cd: underoath
73.band: counting crowes
74.tv channel: discover health
75.movie: ten things i hate about you
76.kitchen appliance: microwave
77.magazine: meh
78.article of clothing: any hoodie
79.actor: mathew lillard
80.actress: i dont really have one
81.show: trauma life in the er
82.person: -
83.guy: -
84.girl: -
85.animal: charlotte
86.time of day: 11 30 pm
87.children's book: courdaroy the boy
88.chore: dishes
89.super power: knowing everything thats going on
90.month: april
91.day of the week: friday
92.holiday: meh
93.sesame street character: grover
94.type of chocolate: dove
95.book: mere christianity
96.type of popcorn: i hate popcorn
97.soup: cream of broccoli

personal...
98.full name: erica fae kustra
99.nicknames: caca
100.if you were a crayon, what color would you be: brown
101.eye color: brown
102.hair color: brown
103.hair style: hair
104.height: 5'7
106.birthday: feb 11
107.birthplace: holyoke
108.zodiac sign: aquarius
109.sex: f
110.sexual orientation: straight
111.location: Chicopee, MA
112.piercings: five in my ears,nose,lip
114.best friend(s): maegan heidi justin alisha
115.are you employed: yes
116.will you have children: yep cant wait
118.what are you wearing now: jeans, hoodie
119.do you have pets: a cat
123.what is under your bed: stuff
125.name of your boyfriend/girlfriend/: leo
126.one word to describe yourself: indescribable
127.do you sleep with stuffed animals: yes
128.do you sleep with real animals: charlotte
129.do you sleep with wild animals: leemars only
130.give random hugs: all the time
131.give back rubs: meh if i really care about you
132.like chapstick: mmmmm
133.like to walk in the rain: yes
134.think you are smart: yes
136.chew gum: yes
137.have pictures on your computer of special people: yes
138.have self images on your computer: yes
140.drink: no
141.smoke: no
142.do drugs: NO
144.make out: sometimes
145.Date: no
146.like cookies: sometimes

in the last week have you....
147.bought something: yes
148.gotten sick: still sick
149.sang: yes
150.played an insturment: yes
152.had a serious talk: ugh too many..waaay too many
153.missed someone: yes
155.hugged someone: yes

other...
156.what do you look for in a guy or girl: someone who is open and honest and wants God as the center of the relationship...and does not lie..not ever
157.what is your your ideal guy or girl: see above answer
158.what is the color of your carpet: it is a magnificant variety of the most lovely hughes of tan
159.what is the color of your bathroom: black
160.what is on your mousepad: dont have one
161.what inspires you: God
162.can you touch nose with your tongue: no
163.what time do you wake up: when i'm not tired anymore
164.what time do you go to bed: 3 or 4
165.what do you do in your free time: hang out with friends
166.have you ever liked somebody you had no chance with: yes
167.do you have a certain type of person you go after: christian
168.are you lonely: at times
169. what store would you max out a credit card with? h an m

hey you!

2005-01-13T06:54:43Z

at work lastnight better than ezra came on the radio...and i thought of you...to this day you are still in my prayers...and probably always will be, regardless of how you feel towards me...

take care

*what lies within*